so today i visited my lovely shrink. only had to wait 1 hour today, usually its about a 90 min. wait. Yeah, its bad.
I am feeling alot better being on the mood stablizer Triliptal, not so up & down like I was for a while there. Keeping that dose the same. Staying on the lexapro, eliminating the doxepin as it gave me CRAAAAZY dreams, night sweats & yes..more weight gain. So as of tonite I will be off all anti deprr. that make you gain weight..YAY.
My med lists looks like this:
AM..
.1 Elmiron (for my IC)
20 mg Lexapro
300 MG Triliptal
1 Allegra allergy pill (dont think it helps allergies AT ALL)
PM
1 Elmiron
300 MG Triliptal
30 MG Cymbalta
1 Vistaril (antihist. to help me sleep)
And I take .25-.50 mg of Ativan daily to keep me chilled out.
Plus thruout the day if I am having pain I will have MOtrin, Tylenol 3 or half a percocet...depends on my pain level with the IC.
I am going to participate in another IC study thru Harvard Med. on the study of IC genes. All I need to do is give them some spit & pee so they can get all my DNA & analyze it. Then they will study it to see if my genes are whacked out causing the IC. I pray that being in these studie help!! This is the 3rd one I am participating in since diagnosed, makes me feel useful.
REally thinking that I am just going to stay at TOnys from now on & just flit back to my place when something is needed. Of course eventually that house needs to get rentd out. Tony has a much bigger place 5bed 4 bath is pretty sweet::-)
Praying i begin to drop some weight now. I am not on anything that really loads the weight on like Elavil & Doxepin did. Its all on me. I am VERY interested in going to some OA meetins ASAP. First concern is Dad..I take him tomorrow afternoon to get his PICC line in & then chemo on Thur. I know he is nervous. I just pray it all goes right & the chemo gives him some relief OR that God just takes him away from this pain.
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Monday, January 3, 2011
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
LONNNG time coming..
I have been wanting to start a blog for a LONG time now. I just never found the time or always found something else to do...I am a huge procrastinator.
I decided I needed an outlet to vent on all the issues that happen in my life. So much has gone on for me in 2010. You would all shudder when you read it, LOL. I am not sure who I will let read this, I am not sure anyone even WANTS to read this. I just know that I love to write & it is a healing process for me & I feel more important when someone actually READS my stuff & comments. I guess it validates me & makes me feel like less of a fuck up. yeah I said the F-bomb.
I guess the best way to tell you is to just list it all..i am a huge fan of lists, btw!
-Grandma died in March 2010
-Grandpa died in Sept 2010
-Dad diagnosed with Stage III cancer, has inoperable tumor on neck due to squamous cell skin cancer going untreated, currently undergoing chemo & more than likely will pass in 2011.
-Me diagnosed with mood disorder/depression, general anxiety disorder, panic disorder & bi polar.
-Living with a crippling bladder disease since 2004, as well as fibromyalgia since 2005.
-broke up with a long term boyfriend in Jan 2010 who I THOUGHT i was madly, crazy in love with, discovered I really wasnt, I was just co dependant
-Had some issues with pot smoking while with said boyfriend, also had an addiction to pain meds which I beat during one of the psych. hospital visits.
-Began intensive weekly therapy sessions to get my shit straight
-went into 2 diff. psych. hospitals 3 different times during the course of 2010 for anxiety
-attempted suicide in april 2010
-had a really mean, nasty ex husband but we suddenly reconnected Aug 210
-fell back in love with said ex husband & am now re-engaged to him...currently living together with our 3 kiddos, he has done a HUGE change & am madly in love
-adopted 2 adorable teacup chihuahuas for our Xmas present...expensive little suckers!
-Won social security disability after hiring a lawyer & won first try for my multiple issues.
-Discovered Jesus in May 2010 after a neighbor knocked on my door to talk to me..Christian now after being Catholic raised
-Currently dealing with a pretty bad over eating compulsion.
-Gained more than 50lbs due to various psych. medicines I was put on, highest weight I have ever been.
Oh & then in between all that drama, I was also a single mom to 3 kids...ages 8, 10 & 13. Yeah...its alot. Yeah, I get stressed...hence this blog. So this blog is going to be about various issues as listed above, as well as whatever else dribbles out of my leaky mind!!
I decided I needed an outlet to vent on all the issues that happen in my life. So much has gone on for me in 2010. You would all shudder when you read it, LOL. I am not sure who I will let read this, I am not sure anyone even WANTS to read this. I just know that I love to write & it is a healing process for me & I feel more important when someone actually READS my stuff & comments. I guess it validates me & makes me feel like less of a fuck up. yeah I said the F-bomb.
I guess the best way to tell you is to just list it all..i am a huge fan of lists, btw!
-Grandma died in March 2010
-Grandpa died in Sept 2010
-Dad diagnosed with Stage III cancer, has inoperable tumor on neck due to squamous cell skin cancer going untreated, currently undergoing chemo & more than likely will pass in 2011.
-Me diagnosed with mood disorder/depression, general anxiety disorder, panic disorder & bi polar.
-Living with a crippling bladder disease since 2004, as well as fibromyalgia since 2005.
-broke up with a long term boyfriend in Jan 2010 who I THOUGHT i was madly, crazy in love with, discovered I really wasnt, I was just co dependant
-Had some issues with pot smoking while with said boyfriend, also had an addiction to pain meds which I beat during one of the psych. hospital visits.
-Began intensive weekly therapy sessions to get my shit straight
-went into 2 diff. psych. hospitals 3 different times during the course of 2010 for anxiety
-attempted suicide in april 2010
-had a really mean, nasty ex husband but we suddenly reconnected Aug 210
-fell back in love with said ex husband & am now re-engaged to him...currently living together with our 3 kiddos, he has done a HUGE change & am madly in love
-adopted 2 adorable teacup chihuahuas for our Xmas present...expensive little suckers!
-Won social security disability after hiring a lawyer & won first try for my multiple issues.
-Discovered Jesus in May 2010 after a neighbor knocked on my door to talk to me..Christian now after being Catholic raised
-Currently dealing with a pretty bad over eating compulsion.
-Gained more than 50lbs due to various psych. medicines I was put on, highest weight I have ever been.
Oh & then in between all that drama, I was also a single mom to 3 kids...ages 8, 10 & 13. Yeah...its alot. Yeah, I get stressed...hence this blog. So this blog is going to be about various issues as listed above, as well as whatever else dribbles out of my leaky mind!!